What I Learned From My Father’s Death (A Personal Story)

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No matter what happens in my life there is one thing I know for sure, “I will never ever give up.

People who know me from my childhood are often amazed to hear that I am even alive, let alone actually living a great life. I like when these people from my past look at me in wonderment because I know I am serving as a reminder to them that anything is possible. I like to think I am a wake up call :)

You see, when I was 2 years old my father was in a car accident that left him quadraplegic. As an active, energetic medical doctor, having his body in this state was not easy for him. He was not able to work and provide for our family and we fell into complete poverty over the next few years. My dad became more and more depressed and two years after his accident he gave up and took his own life.

I still remember the funeral and touching his cold face. I remember everyone crying as I tried to make sense of what it all meant. The conclusions I came to have influenced my entire life.

I remember asking where he was and crying myself to sleep every night for over a year. Then one night I stopped crying. I knew he was not coming back and at 5 years old I made a decision to go on with my life and to never ever give up like he did, no matter what.

This was only the first of many tragedies and challenges I faced growing up but it is the one that shaped me the most. Nothing really seemed to faze me after that…I think part of me when numb but I also formed a deep seeded “knowing” that I could survive and endure anything life threw at me. That knowing has given me the strength and courage to face the rest of the challenges I have experience in my life.

I believe God gives us challenges so we can learn the lessons we are here to learn. We have free will and choice in how we respond to those challenges but we will never be given more than we can handle (even when it seems that way).

No matter how great your challenge is in life as long as you can trust that you are getting the lesson you need to get then you can walk through it gracefully. The bigger the challenge the more you will grow so be grateful for your challenges.

My dad was missing one thing, faith, and that is why he could not endure the challenge he was faced with. When we humble ourselves and turn to God for help we realize we were never alone on the journey at all. I wish my dad could have had this knowing deep in his heart so he never would have given up on life… it would have been great to have him around growing up.

I have learned a lot from my father’s suicide death. Most of all I learned that living without faith is a scary place to be when faced with big life challenges. I also learned that we can find strength to go on in life no matter what we are faced with, and when we triumph over adversity we become an example to others of what is possible in life. And when we chose to give up on life there is a far reaching impact on the people left. I learned from this and all my life experiences so far that I can not do it without God, and thinking I can is insane.

All I know is our time here is short. We don’t know how long we have to live this life and our choices moment by moment have an impact on ourselves and others. We are here to grow and learn and every experience if perfect. Like Steve Jobs says, we can’t connect the dots looking forward, we can only connect the dots looking back. When I look back at my life I can see how perfect is all has been for me to be right where I am today. Life is a mystery unfolding every moment!

With Love,

Mia Davies

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  • You know how much of a blessing I think you are, but it doesn't hurt to share it again ... you are a blessing. Your courage in sharing all you have of yourself in the last year has been a privilege to observe and I feel blessed to be sharing this journey with you. Much love to you, angel.
  • Mia, it was great to read "Your" story.  As you know, in one way or another we all have them or will have them.  It's how we deal with them that helps mold who we are.   I believe your story will help others and it was great of you to share it.
  • Tracey0917
    Thanks for sharing Mia.  Perfectly stated ... an inspiration.
  • I made a plug for this post on my blog today. http://www.warrenbaldwin.blogs...
  • I have to say, you are very brave for telling the story.  I too come from a quadriplegic father, however I was much older.  Thank you for this...


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  • Lilibeth MacLean
    Thanks for sharing, Mia.  This is beautiful.
  • Mary
    Mia, thank you for sharing. It takes a lot of courage, but is an inspiration and possible healing for others. My son and I still deal with the impact of my husbands suicide.

    Blessings
    Mary
  • Jodi Carwan
    Very touching and powerful Mia, this story left me teared up.  You are strong and dedicated to living for today and being all you can be - and for a deep reason near and dear to your heart.  Thank you for transparency and always sharing so openly.  God Bless!!
  • WIllem (Hein) Espach
    Thanx for sharing - God bless!!!

    Very touching and it just shows what can be achieved with determination and faith, Go girl!!!
  • Leann
    Thank you Mia, for sharing such a defining moment in your life. 

     I rather think that God DOES like to give us more than we can handle, to remind us of our reliance on Him.  It is when we think that we can handle everything on our own that we seem to flounder, when we finally put our faith in Him that we are carried through it.

    I am sorry that you have this experience in your past but you have been given gifts from the experience, thank you for sharing them.
  • motivated182
    Thank you for sharing this with us!  It has helped me with what I am dealing with in my personal life with the challenges my husband and I are facing with one of my children.  God is there right by your side and he will see you though no matter what, never give up.  No one has an easy life.
  • KC
    Beautiful. Thank you for this very honest, vulnerable and beautiful sharing. KC Baker
  • Terry Wheeland
    Amazing!
  • Mia, thank you for sharing such a personal story from your heart, and how it has shared you into the person you are today.  You are a role model to many and your example of faith, belief, persistence and contribution help to inspire and make an incredible difference in the lives of so many people that are hungry for the realization that there are others out there, possibly with similar challenges, that do understand.  I appreciate you!

    Stephanie Sterling
  • Jean-Luc Van Nerum
    Thank You Mia for sharing such a special, personal and profond story. You are a voice to so many out there. Thanks for what you are doing, indeed we all have a role to achieve in this world. Wishing You Mia all the very best in life. You deserve it. Your Belgian fan. Jean-Luc
  • Thanks for sharing Mia.  My father battled clinical depression his whole adult life and when I was 22, he took his life.  I took it pretty hard and wasted many years drinking too much and living a fatalistic philosophy always planning to take my own life when I turned 44, the age he was.  When I finally turned 44, I realized how young I (and he) still was, and how much still lay ahead.  I still wish I could go back and talk to him one more time and tell him how he had so much to live for, like grandchildren he never met.  It's only through faith and hope that I get up every day wondering what new adventure the day might bring.
  • Very powerful post, Mia. I'm sorry you had this experience, but glad you chose to learn from it in a way that is life changing for good. I am going to put a link to this post on my  blog later this week.
    Warren
  • I love your heart Mia! Thank you for sharing and speaking out...I lost my best friend in suicide and I know sometimes I wonder why she did. I know to lose a parent is tough and remember he is watching over you and knowing you are talking about  him on this blog means you are honoring him...

    yes having faith is important...my parents finally accepted God in their life after dealing their health issues..

    thank you!
    Tat
  • Mike Heckendorf
    Mia... thank you for your transparency.  That is a rare quality among the "gurus" of today.  The truth shall set you free.  Maintain your faith and hope in God as you pursue that which he has set before you to accomplish in life's wonderful journey.

    Lord Bless you Mia!

    Mike Heckendorf
  • Mobius1r
    I was really touched by your personal story Mia...and as a mental health counselor / health and wealth consultant, I will use that story with your permission to no longer convince individuals who are depressed...After loosing my father because the hospital discharged my father when he had not fully recovered from his legs surgery; my father who was in for a routine check on his legs (knee injury in the war against the Japanese, Island of Guam; father was a soldier in the Royal Dutch Army); suffered from high blood pressure and his medications complicated the recovery process. One week after discharge he died of a heart stroke.

    I was a graduate student studying clinical psychology at St. Mary's University. The parallel for both stories and for others to learn is simply to understand that when someone experiences a loss of a loved one...it is OK  to cry....I cried having received a call from my sister, Ingrid, (mother could not call...she had to be sedated) and I immediately stopped my education and flew out to Spring Hill, FL to provide comfort for mother...I asked my room mate to call the school.

    The decision that was made allowed me to see my father at his funeral and to pay my respects as a family member, My sister was there and step-brother also there and mother was in need of someone after the funeral services-- so I stopped my education at SMU and relocated Spring Hill, Florida.

    That was in 1996...I am glad that in a family crisis there is always the faith to be together with family and when in a crisis situation... I had to learn a new job as I no longer could work as a mental health counselor (I could not remain objective) and became a mortgage / loan originator...I eventually changed my graduate program as a traditional student to become a graduate student online with the University of Phoenix system in Maitland and Tampa, FL.

    I now believe that my father is alive in me...and you also allow your father live once more in spirit every time you share this story for others to learn. Not too many people can provide this as full disclosure. He is whole in heaven and his suicide is so that he can be whole because illness and other deficiencies do NOT exist in spirit. He is probably looking down on you as you wrote his personal story as testament.

    Ray
  • Fouad Al Zomir

    Mia, Who did not like climbing mountains - lives forever in the pits...!

    Thanks for sharing....
  • Thank you Mia I come from a similar background Iove the fact that i'm not the only one making this kind of journey :)
  • Chasenchess
    I've have two favorite quotes that I've lived by for years.
    "Never, never, never, never, never, ever give up." Sir Winston Churchill
    "Be the change you want to see in the world." Mahatma Gandhi
    Mia-I think you're on the same path.
    Thanks for sharing your story. You touch hearts and souls.
  • Melanie Phillibert
    God is truly amazing Mia...thank you for sharing this intimate detail of your past. A daily prayer for me is... thank you God, that I can do ALL things through Jesus Christ who strengthens me. There is so much power in knowing that we have a God in whom we trust! Let your light keep on shining. Love Melanie
  • Don White
    Amen Mia
  • Don White
    God is good all the time 
    All the time God is good
  • Stevidore
    This story is great & all. I don't know if you're going to read this but here goes. When I was struggling in my MLM business I turned to the internet & guess who greeted me with a smile? Yes YOU!

    I'm saying this from deep within my heart. The day you quit MLM is was heart broken. The profession had lost yet another great leader. I'm really not too sure if you're back in th profession or not but my wish for is you practice what you preach about never giving up.

    I hope with every fiber of my being that somehow I got this all wrong & you're still in the profession.

    Lots od LOVE...
  • Dr. Dick Pritchard
    Great story, Mia. Thanks for sharing it. There is a world of difference between those who are defeated by great tragedies and those who choose to overcome them.

    Dr. Dick
  • Thanks for telling us that story.  I know that God did not want us to have to have this kind of challenges but we do.  Someday I know God promises to undo all the damage that has been done to mankind.  In the mean time until that day.  Having Faith is the answer to persevering these unbearable trials.
  • Thank you for sharing your very personal story Mia.  I agree with you in everything, life is challenging some times, we face strong lessons and those ones are the ones that give us the chance to move on, to stand up and continue living, fully and in love.  No one said it'd be easy, but the peaceful satisfaction of knowing that you did it, and you're here for something grater than yourself, being a channel to impact some one elses lives and make a difference, it's so big and great.  Keep going Mia :) Light, Blessings and Hugs from Mexico.  Fabiola Martinez.
  • Rick
    Mia, you are a beautiful soul...  Thank you for being you...

    "All the Best"

    Here's to you baby!!!   ;-D
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